blessings

i'm having one of those blah days. nothings wrong, it's raining & the sky is a hovering gray color. i hate when i have these weird anxious days. i feel the nagging feeling that everything is wrong, so i go through my checklist of all the things that are going right in my life, but still i can't shake this feeling. this led me to dwell on all the blessings in my life. i thought it would be a good idea to blog about these blessings.

i have grace. despite my wretchedness & my continuing failings at being the woman God created me to be, i am forgiven & loved. this sense of peace inspires me to continue to strive toward that person that God wants me to be.

i am loved by an amazing man. he's charismatic, tender hearted, incredibly generous & loves me so completely. he makes me laugh & reminds me not to take life quite so seriously. we have a history that makes me cry every time i go back in time. i love this man.

i have a son, named Cam that fills a part of my heart that i didn't know existed before he was born. he makes me laugh & makes me so absolutely proud. he's articulate, obedient, smart & dynamic. i love looking into his little face & seeing john & myself. i like to imagine what kind of man he'll grow up to be. he will make some special woman as happy as his daddy makes me.

i have a baby girl, named Kellis. she keeps me young & gives me a strong sense of responsibility. my role as mother is one the MOST important things i will ever do. i love making her laugh & seeing her gigantic goofy, gummy smile.

i have two of the best parents that this world has ever known. my parents open their home to my family so often & we just enjoy being in their company. my dad is the wisest person i have ever known. he's the first person i go to when i need to hear the truth & need someone to bounce ideas off of. he sees life so simply, so black & white. this stability gives me so much peace. my mom is so cute. she's laid back & down to earth. no drama. common sense & a lot of fun. we definitely are each others confidants.

my 2 sisters are my lifetime friends. lynden & kylie are such great chill buddies. watch tv, drink a glass of wine & unwind. talk, listen, talk. it's nice to have someone to do nothing with.

God has given me amazing friendships. life goes by so fast & it's easy to get distracted & loose track of friends. i have had a few friends that have endured.