cam & kellis communicating
i'm still swollen, cam was still in icu, about 6 days old, carolyn was there

cam's first easter, in athens

cam about 1 month old snoozing with daddy with his heart monitor strapped on

i just put cam to bed at 10pm. i know that's kind of slack as a mom, but sometimes it just so nice to hang out with him. i get so busy sometimes, that i forget to enjoy what a special little man he is. tonight, his personality & charm was on. we sat outside on the front porch while he rambled on for 5 minutes saying,

"what's that? it's a mean dog. no, not really, it's a nice dog, like jenna's dog." "you don't like this chair? it's a bad chair. it's not scary, no." "what's that up there?" "we don't like skeeters (mosquitos) they're bad." "i don't like horses & giraffes. you remember the man with the beard in my class at church? george doesn't have a beard, he has a moustache. i don't have a moustache, i have a mouth and a nose and a face."

then we came inside & he cuddled up with his head on my lap, drinking his milk cup, sucking his thumb. i can't even describe how nice it feels with him so close to me. i have to stop for a minute & just savor what it feels like. how tender a son's love is. his heart is so pure & simple. he's thinking, " i love my mommy". (yes, as a matter of fact, i Can read his mind.)

i know everything will get more complicated for him. life becomes distracting, but right now i feel the same simplicity. "i love cam."

moments like tonight make me wonder if life really can get any richer. just acknowledging them makes me feel more blessed.

i have to remember to stop to savor the small things & start to comprehend that they're actually the True things.

goodnight.